Insecurities

What comes to your mind when you know that something wrong is happening to you? How you will react and face it? Isn't it funny how something can just fall on you without even noticing it? There are some certain things we can deny it because no matter how you tried to ignore it, it will still be there and it will never go away unless you treat it. Being into another person that you have never thought you would be is something dangerous. Each time when someone asked me whether I am all right or not, I will answer " yes, I am fine :) " This is a habit of me to not letting people worry about me because I feel like it is a burden to them. I lied, at times. I tell people I am busy with some other stuff but what they have it in their mind is stuff like work, assignments, projects and etc. I was busy with stuff, but not in a way most people can understand. I was busy taking deep breaths and telling myself that everything will be fine. I was busy calming down my heart because at times, I can't control my own racing heartbeats where I feel most of the time, the heart just gets uncontrollable no matter what situation. I can feel my own heart beats most of the time where it is a normal thing a person can have. Palpitation it means. I was even busy with silencing my thoughts of irritation. Sometimes, this is what I am busy with. I had insecurities which I felt it shouldn't be. At times I just could not help myself and all I did was just think too much about it. I hoped, in my life, I can be free from all these sufferings so I could live a better life. I'm still trying and I will never stop until I manage to overcome it.